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WARNING: THIS IS ABOUT HOW CRAPPY I FEEL CURRENTLY by MichaelJLarson WARNING: THIS IS ABOUT HOW CRAPPY I FEEL CURRENTLY by MichaelJLarson
As the title says, this is just a miniature, "rant" about how I've been doing lately. So if you don't wanna read about me and my problems, then go look at something else ot whatever...

... Anyways, over the past few months, starting in either late spring or early summer, I've been feeling really shitty. The kind of shitty that feels like my eyes feel like tears could burst out of them and I feel empty inside. I feel like I don't have the energy or the soul I used to have anymore. Now it's incredibly difficult just to get out of bed and attempting to be productive. Things I've used to be so passionate about seem to be fading away from me, and I keep on trying and trying so hard to care about them, but to no avail.

Making art, making comics, drawing in general even if it's just sketching, Halloween, even just turning on my computer seems to be a chore rather than something I wanna do, and I hate it. I hate feeling like this, I hate being sad all the time, and I especially hate it when it prevents me from embracing the things I love doing. But even though I hate it, I just don't feel any kind of enthusiasm for trying to turn it around. I just feel so worthless and tired that I don't even want to try to make some art or whatever, because I'm scared that all it will do is confirm how worthless I actually am. It's an awful feeling that I do not wish on anyone, even people I thoroughly dislike.

It's entirely possible that I have clinical depression (hell, it runs in my family on both sides) and I am seeking help as of me typing this. But for now, this little picture represents my current life, and how crappy I've been feeling these past months, if not past years. You can try to cheer me up if you want, maybe by saying something that you think will make me feel better. And although that might help a little, deep down I'll still feel miserable and worthless regardless, because apparently depression won't go away even if the whole world tells me everything will be okay... Thanks for reading all of this if you did, and I hope my efforts will get my life back on track, but for some reason I have my doubts...
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:iconthe-third-guy:
Dude, that really sucks.  I genuinely hope you get to feeling better soon.  Just remember, we're all pulling for you.
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TeamPlatypusMan Feb 22, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Remember to enjoy. Enjoying something is the most important thing to do in life apart from eating and drinking.Nerd 
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LadyMaid-of-Pokemon Jan 30, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Maybe instead of drawing gore and death, try drawing more uplifting and happy artworks! Or mix them together, that would be very unique. I challenge you to do so! Only great artists would accept a challenge. It'll just get worse if you don't make a balance. That's what life's all about, right? Try going for a walk outside, nature is very inspiring. I know I've had times where I felt like poop.
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I know that its been months since this was posted and I bet you're past this feelings but try to be more positive, I'm sure it'll help.
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:icon1544cc:
Good luck with that, I like your drawings.
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:iconunknownman10:
Its okay we still love you and your work
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:icondark-man555:
Dark-man555 Nov 4, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
story of my life
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:iconeb-the-gamer:
EB-the-GAMER Nov 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
welcome to my shitty little world at times...
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:iconoogie101:

I don't know if you'll read this whole thing, but I hope you do. I want to be honest with you. There really isn't anything that anybody can say to make you feel better- the empty feel better words and such- but you should know that art is with you for a reason. I have felt the same thing, that art can be a chore rather than a favorite pastime. (Instead of drawing detailed illustrations, maybe you could try scribbling doodly things.) Also you should know, you are not alone. There are plenty of people who are willing to talk to you, and many people who are willing to help you. My advice: Keep smiling- if you do, people smile back...it helps, believe it or not. Also, maybe putting art aside and taking something else up for a while may help. If it was meant to be, art will find its way back to you. I gave up art for singing for a while, and art found its way back to me.

 

Just keep smiling. :)

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:iconed6247:
Best of luck, you'll overcome it. 
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:iconmizukiyumeko:
<3 feels better and stuff.
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